i grew up an only child in lincolnshire in the uk. i spent most of my younger life alone playing in the woods and fields that bordered my home...it didn't matter what the weather was doing i just loved to be out there in nature...seeds sown then that were to take root and flourish in my later life.
i wasn't happy as a child nor in the environment i grew up in...among adults, being forced to do things i didn't want to do. the only fun thing was the food and the alcohol so i grew up with an eating disorder and drink problem. i knew i didn't want to be like the people around me and rebelled as much as i dared to.
at 17 i left home for horticultural college doing landscape and nursery work which i did enjoy though i was more focused on being away from home....here i could eat and drink without restriction !
it was here that without feeling or thought i spontaneously came out as a lesbian. that night i sat down and wrote a poem..it was perfect and in fact i had it published in 'True To Life', edited by Susan Hemmings, and i have never stopped writing since.
after a brief year back living with my parents i left home for good, moved to sheffield and spent many years miserable, confused drinking and eating...and at this time was very political especially in the women's movement animal rights and the peace movement.
in 1991, age 25 i ground to a halt with anorexia and depression...i couldn't handle eating anymore so i stopped, i wanted to die and took several overdoses. i sat with all the pieces of myself on the floor around me..slowly slowly i began to look at each one, clean it and put myself back together. first i used psychotherapy, and then with rebirthing and using my spiritual beliefs that i had begun to form a year earlier.
and so i healed and grew and grew and never looked back nor stopped growing...
this web site is a culmination of all that i am, and all the ways i have grown and healed that have brought me to this present moment.
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